Late Night Special #3: Straight Confessional

Isn't it funny how when someone sparks your hope it can be at a crazy time in that person's life? The one that likes me for who I truly am, a host of imperfection, and yet in his eyes I'm a queen, a best friend, a confidant (sp?), a comforter, and all that inbetween? I've never seen anyone so excited to see my face or hear my voice! lol Makes me smile just thinking about it. From walking me to classes, the "just checkin on u" & "how's ur day" messages, the stupid faces we make, the goofy jokes ("Scuse me Jesus! lol), and all the fun...*sigh* But, sometimes past loves and things can either get in the way or actually be right on time. Who knows though. So, u're between a rock & a hard place & here I am, HOPING...Hey, you know what? I don't mind hoping for you, wanting you, wishing I could watch you sleep, see your smile, and the shy looks you give, the hugs, kisses on the cheek, the sly way u try to hold my hand lol, our arguments of randomness that end in giggles & tickles. GEEZE! I swear I can't win for losing, but you give me H-O-P-E. U'RE AMAZING. I don't want u to have to choose, but what else is there? A 2 yr. luv or a few weeks of bliss? I know I'm more than a friend to u, I know exactlly how you feel, and I know how much you care. Now it's just up 2 u and Jesus...TAKE CARE OF U FIRST! It's not up to me or her. Ur happiness is what matters.