My Shining Star

Some things just cannot be explained...you struggle each day to work through the struggle and I appreciate each step you take with me...

You are the king to this planet of mine. Two worlds that have joined together in the craziest way. Everything I do somehow involves you...every decision these days seems to bring you to my mind. True enough I am the brightest star (the sun) on this Ameythian planet but you are the star right next to it. You love me hard when I'm at my best & even harder when I'm at my worst. You ask me why I believe we were meant to be together, well, you bring out the best & worst in me. The best is always nice but it's the bad times that give us character. You help me take the steps to become a better person and when I fall you never hesitate to help me stand with the help of God. You were there when I lost so much; through the laughter and tears, comforted me during times of fear and most of all you haven't given up on me...Therefore, in short, I'M not afraid to say I LOVE YOU. I love you King Colby with all my heart.

#33 Hidden Treasure (LOOK OUT! IT'S BOO SEASON!)

I've been gone waaaay too long my late night special fans!!! Now that I have the new laptop it's back to the grind!

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone" -Javan

Have you ever noticed that when the seasons start to change and the leaves change color and it becomes chilly out that people tend to gravitate towards the opposite sex? Well, ladies and gents, that can only mean one thing...It's "boo season". LOL Many of you may already know what I'm talking about but for those of you that don't let me catch you up.

"Boo season" is when it gets chilly out and everyone just wants to be close to SOMEONE; whether it be their spouse, significant other, or just someone to be cuddled up with. I'm not sure if it's just the cycle of life but it happens around the same time every year. Never fails!

I have spoken with many friends and associates and everyone seems to be thinking the same thing! Who can I snuggle up with and watch a movie tonight? Or have a meaningful conversation? I know that I've thought about it on occasion. It's only human. Everyone wants to be cared for from birth and we honestly never outgrow it. No matter what anyone says it's the truth.

The biggest problem I've come to find is that most are having a hard time finding exactly what they want. It's like going to Wal Mart searching for an ice cream you've been craving and they not have it in stock. Frustrating right? As of late I've put a lot of thought into what it is I want and honestly I think I've come to a great conclusion. I know what I want and what I want is what God knows I NEED. People aren't always looking for a relationship exactly but what I like to call a "monogamous boo". Goofy huh? Well, I think it makes perfect sense on my sweet little planet. Let me elaborate... A "monogamous boo" is someone that you can converse with on your level, have the same interests or enough to find fun and relaxing things to do, they're support when you need it at 3AM, that you don't have to worry about being out talking to ten different girls or guys, and honestly just someone that's there without the titles. I've come to find that the girlfriend/boyfriend title cliche' disturbs a lot of people. If it blossoms into a relationship then great! But if you're fine with the arrangement that's cool too. It's all about where you are in life and your mindset. I know that I am a college student and my main focus are my studies but a companion doesn't hurt! (If it's that bad I suggest a pet LMBO) I feel as if sometimes the whole love interest area can be like one of those hidden object games. Things you search for the most are the hardest to find, but remember if you want to hide something hide it in plain sight.

Take it as you wish. Just another late night thought that became a Late Night Special.

It's that time to showcase one of my fave fave fave youtube channels! I must let you all check out one of my luvs Brian_Bee! www.youtube.com/user/Bee318ti

His hilarious antics have been favorited by not only myself but B. SCOTT! I mean what more is there to say?

A very good friend of mine, Hypnotiqdom (who is also on youtube), got me hooked on this crazy guy. So everyone please check him out!...

&&& while you're at it FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER! Yes, I had to plug myself LOL www.twitter.com/MadnessToday!

Check out 2 of my fave videos by this crazy boo of mine!

*****PARENTAL ADVISORY*****
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-EEqCeiCJOA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9H4Zbac1084

#32: How Quickly Things/People Change

You know, it's funny how things can change right before your eyes. People who you thought were your friends disappear, what you thought was love was just a misunderstanding, and advancement with yourself can also occur. At this moment I am acknowledging where I am and where I was just a meer two months ago. *SMH* I must say that I have grown and learned many new things from the unfortunate events and great opportunities that have been presented to me.

I find myself seeing things from a different perspective and I'm quite optimistic this time. No longer looking for things but waiting for them to be revealed to me. Even though I may get impatient or even lonely at times I realize that I'm in a position of great change and amazing achievement.

Thanks for listening!

#31: Planet Amethyst, episode 2

Watching the comets fly by as I swing my feet & wiggle my piggies (toes) I wonder what my DREAMS are made of. I have an idea of what I want to do but is it what I was meant to do? In fact, do I know what I want to do? UGH! I hate being so indecisive! Why can't I just know?!

And then my mind ventures off to you once again. Time after time you wiggle your way into my thoughts. For some reason my heart & mind believe that you will be a part of my happiness. I just want things to go the way that I daydream them to.

One random thought that's been plaguing me lately is...well, I want a puppy! Just a cute little Teacup Terrier or a Yorkie would do. Even though I'd love any cute furry face that's what I really want. Just a nice animal to love and baby to death, lol.

The stars are really beautiful tonight. *sigh* Kinda wish I had a puppy & a cuddle-buddy to enjoy them with, LOL! But for now I'm going to enjoy all of the amazingly beautiful thing that God's created.

Until next time!

#30: Planet Amethyst, episode 1

Sitting here on my little planet all I can do is think of y-o-u...But why? I told myself that I wouldn't do this again. Told myself I wouldn't trust my heart.......or is it my mind? Which one is speaking? *sigh* You've found your way into my dreams and when I close my eyes I'm haunted by your smile & that GORGEOUS body. And that beautiful beautiful mind! How I hang on your every word and your philosophy leaves my mind in an orbit of puzzles.

I wonder if you think of me. I wonder if you wonder what I'm thinking, what I'm doing, or if I'm thinking of you. Is this all forreal? Or am I just stick in my piscean world again?

Amethyst, oh Amethyst, how I love & dread the! You bring me to the height of pleasure and fantasy and yet you continuously shit on me...excuse my language my dear terrene but you must understand my angst. Everytime I submerge myself in your oceans I end up drowning. I want something to be right...

In the next few weeks I wish to have the happiness I hope for. Please don't let this be a dream...

FOOL ME ONCE
SHAME ON YOU
FOOL ME TWICE....

#29: Ode To Phenomenal Women

As of late I have encountered women who are stuck or straddling an issue that they wish to overcome. Well, ladies, today is the day to cry your hearts out! Let go of what is troubling you and give it all to God!



Varily I say to you that you are a woman phenomenally! The sun is in your smile, the stars in your eyes, skin of silk, and full of surprise. You are a woman phenomenally! Your womb is a blessing and can be seen as a curse, this I understand but you have the God given priviledge to bring life into this world.

Each and every one of you have inspired me in many ways and my sister YOU are a significant part in this world. You are a woman phenomenally! You support our men, raise our children, and push others to be the epitome of themselves.

I LOVE YOU MY SISTA! & DON'T YOU FORGET THAT. YOU ARE THE DEFINITION OF A PHENOMENAL WOMAN!