After reading another tasty selection from my girl Fancy B. I have checked myself into rehab. Yes, you heard me right; REHAB ladies and gentlemen. It is now 3:12 AM and I have had a small revelation...I cannot force reality to become my fantasy world {Planet Pleasure}. You see in my world I have the perfect man, fulfilling sex, extreme focus, a clear view of my future, and so on and so forth.
LOL! So, you're laughing too? I don't blame you. How could I ever expect for this life that I live day to day, going through the motions to amount to what goes on in my Piscean planet? No such thing exists.
I guess this is where my rights come into play. THE PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS: the right to pursue whatever gives me joy...people speak of this as if it is as easily done as it is said, but REALITY CHECK! It's all just wishful thinking. Oh, come on! Like wishful thinking doesn't play a major role in most of our lives? Let's be real here...Most of us are in predicaments where we are conforming to society and what we THINK we should be or how we THINK we should act. Going for the career that will make us the most money, but bring us the most misery. Don't act like you've never seen it! People waking up dreading going to that job, dealing with those coworkers, that boss; it's all REAL. Or dating that guy that everyone says is good for you. How in the hell do they know what's good for me or you?! Yeah, he's sweet, he's on bended knee everytime you blink waiting on you hand and foot, taking care of you, there to listen, but the REALity of it is there's something missing isn't it? HA! Got'cha! Then you feel bad when everyone's looking at you saying why didn't you choose this or you're dumb for letting that go. REALITY CHECK!!! They can't live your life or determine your happiness!
Take it from me sweets; it's really not worth it because somewhere down the line the bottom is going to fall out of your "perfect" little life. Yes, I do consult my "friends", but you know what my reality is? I have no clue who my friends are. I never had a best friend. The closest I got to that was a puppy that was taken from me. LOL Yeah, it may be funny to you, but that dog meant the world to me. Anyway, let me not get off subject. Everything that I ever tried to have hope in was taken away from me or was fake is what I'm getting at. So, if you have ONE true friend then you'd better keep 'em! The REALity to that is you have to count your blessings.
I'm tired of hiding behind my fears. I must be myself! So, here I am world!!! In all my naked glory! I spread my wings for all to see! I have no clue what I want to do after I graduate from college (besides grad school which could be a ploy to buy me more time), I have no clue when I'll be ready to settle down so guys let me do me, I refuse to explain myself to anyone, I'm emotional & quite sappy, I'm a hopeless romantic, I like to be fulfilled sexually (don't act like you don't! The only problem is pleasure is hard to measure...but that's another blog for another day lol), so what if you think I talk too much? Did it ever occur to you that I have a lot to say?, don't try to control me because that'll NEVER happen, and I could just go on forever, but I'll let everyone figure it out if they get a chance to know and understand me. It's 2009 and there's NO STOPPIN' MY SHINE! So, to those of you who hate, don't like me, are annoyed or whatever your dilemma is I will no longer let that phase me. So when you see me MAKE A WISH BITCH!
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*snap* *snap* *snap* yes mama! yes! these reality checks are definitely much needed. im living for the nectar of ya words miss!! i love it! i really do! people need to take time to analyze themselves. self intuition is the new move!
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